Expectancy

Imagine like a child that things really do work out. They really do come through! When the war wages inside your head between "it won't and it will" grab the it will side and let it flood into all of your emotions and give you strength. I remember as a young girl having my hopes let down and my expectation was always for struggle and loss. Many horrible things had happened to me. Sexual abuse, verbal abuse, abandonment and more. When God began to heal me as an adult woman from such trauma He told me to literally 'pretend'. I couldn't get my hopes up in the natural just yet so He told me to just pretend that I could. It was a baby step of faith, a very tiny baby step, where I'd mentally and physically pretend that things were shifting for me and things were going to come through. If I was terrified on a plane trip, which I used to be years ago, I'd pretend and 'see' myself in the future in my mind. I'd see my safe landing and now I was in baggage claim. I could feel the peace and expectancy of things working out and it would fill my entire body. Many years later, this tiny steps of faith and pretending like I believed grew into full fledged faith and an expectancy that my Father in heaven gives good gifts! Even if things didn't work out as I may had hoped all the time, there was a growing confidence that I'd be taken care of and things would turn around. This faith walk is yours today as well. Live your life like everything will be ok! If you don't have a lot of faith right now, just pretend that it's all going to be OK. Baby steps to champion! Doors are opening my friend! Walk by faith and not by sight, even if it's just pretending with baby steps.

— with Rhea Rhea Rhea.